Hawk Nelson - Faithful (Official Lyric video)

You never promised me that this would be easy
I never knew that anything could be this hard
I wanna trust that You know what You're doin'

 

 

 Mother's day was hard.  It was hard to get out of bed and get moving.  It was hard to smile as I greeted everyone around me.  It was hard to receive "Happy Mother's Day" texts and phone calls from friends.  It was hard to breathe in and breathe out.  All day I felt like I was missing something.  Almost like I was the only one who was feeling this way, "AM I?!?!?!?!"

 

I think for me, this Mother's Day was hard because I have "worked so hard" to be "soooo right" in the eyes of those around me.  A thoughtful daughter, an appreciative mother, a caring friend, a good teacher.  I realized early in the afternoon that I was tired, run down, exhausted and miserable.  I wanted to hide my head, cry and scream at the world, "That is not what Mother's Day is supposed to feel like, IS IT?!?!?!?!" 

 

Mother's Day:  a day when we celebrate our mothers,

even if our relationships with our mothers are strained. 

  Some women have had to bury our mothers this year,,,

others have buried our children too soon...

others have struggled with infertility and still

others children to live with another family and

they miss their kids on this day above all else.. 

Some moms have been given a road not of their choosing...

a road of loneliness as they learn to live a

single life while raising children.  

 

A day of sadness for many women.



No matter how many skies fall down
I'm covered under the peace I've found
You're my shelter when there's nowhere else to go
No matter how many times I break
You promise always to keep me safe
You're my rescue when I'm spinning outta control
You are faithful, faithful

 

I don't want to live a "strong" life.  I'm tired and I feel weak. 

I don't want to "do it on my own."  I keep making a mess of it all. 

I don't want to "be alone".  Its a terrible place to be.   

I want to surround myself with other women- moms and not moms-

 who can encourage me, who can speak love, peace and truth to my heart. 

I want to encourage others- moms and not moms- that this struggle isn't all there is. 

I need to remember that myself, "This struggle isn't all there is" to life. 

For all of those moms and not moms who are still hurting from Mother's Day I want to say... we all feel your hurt in some way. 

"Comfort and prosperity have never

enriched the world as adversity has done...

 Out of suffering and tears have come

 the greatest spirits and the most blessed lives."

-Billy Graham

Your life will be blessed, no matter what you are experiencing.  '

Cause You are good  Even when You're not understood'- as the song says. 
God is faithful.  "Call to me and I will answer you, and
I will tell you great and mighty things,
which you do not know."  Jeremiah 33:3

God will indeed raise us moms and not moms out of the sadness we feel, out of the perfectionism we put upon ourselves.  When we realize that perfectionism is not expected by God but rather a burden placed upon us by ourselves... we will begin to see God's faithfulness.