Big Daddy Weave - "Redeemed" (Official Music Video)

"Redeemed"

Seems like all I could see was the struggle
Haunted by ghosts that lived in my past
Bound up in shackles of all my failures
Wondering how long is this gonna last
Then You look at this prisoner and say to me "son
Stop fighting a fight it's already been won"

I am redeemed, You set me free
So I'll shake off these heavy chains
Wipe away every stain, now I'm not who I used to be
I am redeemed, I'm redeemed

All my life I have been called unworthy
Named by the voice of my shame and regret
But when I hear You whisper, "Child lift up your head"
I remember, oh God, You're not done with me yet

I am redeemed, You set me free
So I'll shake off these heavy chains
Wipe away every stain, now I'm not who I used to be

Because I don't have to be the old man inside of me
'Cause his day is long dead and gone
Because I've got a new name, a new life, I'm not the same
And a hope that will carry me home

I am redeemed, You set me free
So I'll shake off these heavy chains
Wipe away every stain, 'cause I'm not who I used to be

I am redeemed, You set me free
So I'll shake off these heavy chains
Wipe away every stain, yeah, I'm not who I used to be
Oh, God, I'm not who I used to be
Jesus, I'm not who I used to be
'Cause I am redeemed
Thank God, redeemed

 

 

The worrier in me is back.  It's so hard to break that cycle of my past- my need for control, or at least for answers.  I trust God... I really do... but as summer gets closer, I feel the urgency to "figure out" what this summer will look like.  New Job? volunteering? New house?  How will we live day to day? New schedule?

 

 I was listening to this song early this morning and I couldn't help but hit "repeat" on the ipod.  I am a new creature.  I'm not who I used to be.  I don't have to live in the chains of control that I have had for as long as I remember.  I can choose to live in freedom.  God is trying to teach me these things, but it is so easy to go back to my old self... the worrier.  The glass half empty girl. 

 

 

I don't know whether to plan the summer or to let totally go and wait on God.  It goes against every grain in my body to wait.  Honestly, I struggle with whether God wants me to take the initiative to plan a little and to go with what I feel I 'need' to do or whether I should just sit, praying.  Everyone tells me that God doesn't want us to be idle... is that what I am doing?  Am I afraid to make any plans because it will be the wrong one? 

 

What I do know, is that I am redeemed.  God has chosen me for such a time as this.  It is to learn to let go.  Today I choose to live in peace.  To not worry about the details so much.  To rest in God's love and plan, even though I can't grasp it.