The past few days have been a struggle. I went home to spend some time with my mom. During that time I encountered a couple of "freak out" situations which caused me to feel down and almost depressed. I have come so far in the last 3 1/2 months and I tend to get frustrated when I feel I have taken a step backwards.
On Friday morning, Good Friday, it was cold outside- not at all like the spring weather we had been having. By afternoon it began to rain. I have always known the significance of Good Friday but this year I felt it so much more in my core. Jesus DIED on this day. He suffered on this day. God turned his back on his son on this day. The gloomy weather made it feel so much more real.
On Saturday, more gloomy weather and more gloomy heart. I felt sad and I felt alone after we came back home. It was the first time in almost a week that I felt alone. I went to Scripture and read the story of the crucifixion of my Jesus. Something in my heart began to change. I began to wonder what the disciples, Jesus' mother and other followers did on that day. Did they feel alone? abandoned? confused? What was the weather like? Was it a reflection of their mood? I went to bed feeling the same gloom. I began worrying about things that I don't have control over and I definitely let worry take over.
But then Sunday arrived. I woke up early... to the sound... not of rain but of birds singing. The sun is beginning to shine and the ground is beginning to dry. He is alive. Just as the women say the stone rolled away, He is alive. Just as He appeared to the disciples, He is alive. Just as He called to doubting Thomas, He is calling me.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o8QVwC6RWUc
This is a great song on this Easter Sunday. Death has lost its sting, hell has no victory. God wins. He is victorious over death. He is in control of the weather and gloomy times in my life. He died on the cross to show his power and might. Today is about rejoicing. Creation began rejoicing many years ago. Today, I choose to share in that rejoicing.
"The heavens declare the glory of the Lord; the skies proclaim the work of His hands. Day after day they pour forth speech; night after night they display knowledge" Psalms 19:1-2
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