Blessings- Laura Story

"What if this is your miracle?" 

What if this: the pain, the questions, the loneliness, the heartache...

what if this is your miracle from God? 

I had already begun to think about this about a week ago.  No, I had not labeled this as a miracle but I had begun to see this part of my journey as a stepping stone.  I would have never been so bold to step out of my comfort zone.  I would have never problem solved this situation.  I would have remained silent and struggled through life.  I would have never learned to cling to Jesus so tightly and rely on Him so heavily if this obstacle hadn't been placed in my path.  It was so dramatic, I had no other choice than to deal with it head on.  God knew this.  He shook the ground and blindsided me to get me to where I am today. 

"What if my greatest disappointments or the aching of this life, is a revealing of a greater thirst this world can't satisfy.  What if trials of this life, the rain, the storms, the hardest nights, are your mercies in disguise?"- Blessings, Laura Story

In this recent discovery, in the above conversation over coffee, in my journaling and today in my devotional reading/Scripture suggestion, God revealed this truth: 

"So we do not give up.  Our physical body is becoming older and weaker, but our spirit inside of us is made new everyday.  We have small troubles for a while now but they are helping us gain eternal glory that is much greater than our troubles.  We set our eyes not on what we see but on what we cannot see.  What we see will last only a short time but what we cannot see will last forever."  2 Corinthians 4:16-18

In my daily journaling devotional book, Jesus Calling by Sarah Young, I read,

 

"My children tend to sleep walk through their days until they bump into an obstacle that stymies them... The problem can be a ladder enabling you to climb up and see your life from My perspective.  Viewed from above, the obstacle that frustrated you is only a light and momentary obstacle.  Once your perspective has been heightened, you can look away from the problem all together.  Turn to Me and see the Light of my Presence shining upon you."

 

 

Yep... that's me.  I was sleepwalking through life.  I knew there were problems, God sized problems, and I prayed for God to provide a miracle.  Be careful what you pray for because in my case, the miracle came in a very different package than what I would have wanted.  No pretty paper or fancy bow but raw heartache that shook the very core of my being.  That is what makes Blessings, by Laura Story, so real.  God is always listening but sometimes His answers are foreign to us.  Sometimes we have to really search for where He is in the midst of our lives. 

 

Here is a little background on the song in an interview with Laura and the song follows:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=gjB2skJi2co

"There is a blessedness that comes through waiting on the Lord.  There is an intimacy in our walk in the Lord that comes through walking through that valley.  There is a reliance in his Word that we only know when everything else in life fades away."

We doubt your goodness, we doubt your love

as if every promise from you word is not enough.

But all the while you hear each desperate plea

and long that we have faith to believe.

What if... your blessings come through raindrops?

What if... your healing comes through tears?

What if... a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know your near?

What if... trials of this life are your mercies in disguise?

When friends betray us, when darkness seems to win

the pain reminds this heart... this is not our home.

I don't question "Why this had to happen to me" as much as I did in the first weeks and months.  I do know, I wouldn't have the intimacy and reliance on Christ in the very core of my being. He is making me new.  He is restoring me.  I don't know what that will look like next week, or in 5 years.  In the end, this will be a light and momentary trouble.  It doesn't feel that way now but one day, when I see the whole picture, I will see how small and brief it was.  In the light of eternity, this is just a fleeting trial that is drawing me closer to Jesus. 

Sometimes blessings come in unexpected ways.