Hillsong UNITED - Stay And Wait ( ZION Acoustic Sessions )

I wasn't sure what this week would be like.  My first week with no routine.  No places to be, no scheduled people to see, no daughter during school hours.  How in the world would I keep busy. But then I realized that maybe keeping busy wasn't such a good thing.  Maybe this was a gift, a special time for me to just "be."

So this week, after Peanut has gotten off to school, I have made time to spend quietly with God.  Typically with a second cup of coffee in hand, I run to the porch to meet God.  This has been a sweet time with Him.  It hasn't felt rushed, or mandatory, but just a time to refocus on life and what is important.  This song was found during that time.  I love the following lyrics:

Who breathed me out of dust to life

With the will to trust or run and hide

God gave me the freedom to run and hide from my current life situation

or to stand firm in Him.  He created me with that choice. 

I choose to stay and trust. 

 

 Who loved me through my rebel way

Who chose to carry all my shame
Who breaths in me with endless life
The king of glory Jesus Christ

This one a struggle with... Why would he carry my shame to the cross?

 I've never felt human love anywhere close to that.  And now more than ever

I feel God breathing life into my weary soul all for his glory.

 

 

God of wonder and God of grace
Let my soul stand always to praise You
Fix my eyes on Your perfect way
And I'll never look back

This is the best part, I choose to fix my eyes on Jesus. 

I don't want to look back at the last 5 months or even the last 2 weeks. 

I hoped I have praised God through the tears, anger, and loneliness. 

 It is a work of God's grace.

The following are some quotes and scriptures that I have clung to during this time.  It is hard to be still.  It is hard to wait on God's plan and his timing.  But these seem to help. 

• "Be still and in the quiet moments listen to the voice of your Heavenly Father.  HIs words can renew your spirit... no one knows you and your needs like he does.  Janet Weaver Smith.

• I have told you these things so that in Me you may have peace.  In this world, you will have trouble but take heart!  I have overcome the world.  John 16:33

• As we practice the presence of God, more and more we find ourselves going through the stresses and strains of daily activity with an ease and serenity that amaze even us.... especially us.  Richard J Foster

• Let all that I am wait quietly before God, for my hope is in him.  He alone is my rock and my salvation.  Psalm 62:5-6

• So wait before the Lord.  Wait in the stillness.  And in that stillness, assurance will come to you.  You will know that you are heard: you will know that your Lord ponders the voice of your humble desires; you will hear the quiet words spoken to you yourself; perhaps to your grateful surprise and refreshment.  Amy Carmichael

• You are my place of quiet retreat; I wait for your Word to renew me... therefore I lovingly embrace everything you say. Psalm 119:144, 119