Passion - Let It Be Jesus (Live) ft. Christy Nockels

Let it be Jesus

The first name that I call

Let it be Jesus

My song inside the storm

I'll never need another

This week, Jesus' name hasn't been the first thought in my mind nor has it been the first name I have called.  I have struggled with parenting this week. Whoever thought the 2's were terrible had yet to experience the 15's.  I strive so hard to provide my daughter with the life I think she deserves.  I struggle when she doesn't want the blessings of the life I think she deserves.  I want her to want this life more.  I want, I need, I desire, I struggle, I fight and then... I worry.  I get angry.  and even worse, I try to control and manipulate the situation.  This is how I have spent the past week of my life.  The tension is real.  From my constant headache to the tense muscles all down my back, it is a physical tension that I have never experienced.

I was sharing with some friends about our lives this week.  They gently reminded me that God is in control.  One of my favorite devotions this week was found in Heart of the Matter.  It is based on Psalm 26.  It says,

Park your mind on what is true (Phillipians 4:8).  Anxiety is full of lies.  What are some of them?  First, you believe the world needs to be under your control.  Second, you think it is out of control.  And third, you imagine that your worry will get it under control.  But the truth is that this is God's world.  He controls it, and your worry will not change a thing.  So when you are tempted to worry, reject the lie that it is up to you to keep yourself and those you love safe.  

If that isn't food for thought I don't know what is.  God is in control.  He sees the whole picture and I only see this moment's snapshot.  He knows the end of Peanuts story as well as the "in betweens."  I only see what is past and what is lived day by day.  So today, I want this song to be a reflection of my heart.  I want to call out to Jesus whenever I become weary with worry.  I want to demonstrate my love for my daughter by living as a beloved daughter of a far better parent... my Father in Heaven.