I haven't blogged much this week. Life threw me a curve ball. It was a ball I was expecting yet when it came, it shattered my very being. I couldn't remember how to breathe. It was as if the last 6 months were on repeat- like the movie Groundhog Day. Thankfully, I have a wonderful group of people- including my family who hold me together when I can't do it on my own. But this time I had to deal with some anger. And this time the anger was towards God. Its hard even now to admit that my faith faltered. I didn't know if I wanted to believe in a God who allowed such heartache. Even when I couldn't talk to God about these feelings and heaven forbid I share those thoughts with others, still I had people speaking His love and His truth into my heart. Bottom line is that I don't know what the future holds. So tonight, I go to bed knowing that God isn't afraid of my questions or doubts and that He will lead me to the answers I need when I need them.
"I could throw my fist in the air demanding answers
But in spite of all the questions
I’m still giving You my life
And if it doesn’t turn out like I think it should
It doesn’t change the fact You’re always good
Your ways are higher than mine"
But in spite of all the questions
I’m still giving You my life
And if it doesn’t turn out like I think it should
It doesn’t change the fact You’re always good
Your ways are higher than mine"
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