Crowder - I Am (Lyric Video)

It's been a year...a stormy year since my life was forever changed.  I'd like to say I got the answers I was so desperately searching for at that time.  I'd like to say that all is right in my corner of the world.  I'd like to say I have overcome the valley that I was placed in.  But I haven't done any of those things.  I still wonder why it had to happen.  I still struggle to make day to day decisions.  I still feel weak and vulnerable.

But...  There have been positive experiences... a faith that I can trust in, even when I can't see or feel it...a stronger relationship with Peanut, my teen age daughter... a new home that I couldn't have dreamed of last year... intimate new friendships where I can "be me."

Maybe that's where I am supposed to be.  Still giving myself grace for the days ahead.  Being patient and forgiving when I feel I should be stronger.  Trusting God despite how I feel.  Leaning on him to guide me.  Holding on...

I AM holding onto you.
I AM holding onto you.
in the middle of the storm
I AM holding on
I AM 

Love like this, oh my God to find
I am overwhelmed what a joy divine
Love like this sets our hearts on fire

This is my resurrection song
This is my hallelujah come
This is why its to you I run
There's no place that his love can't reach
There's no place that we can't find peace
There's no end to amazing grace.

I know this last stanza will one day be the anthem of my life.  I will see this time as a resurrection and sing hallelujah.  Not today but one day in the future.